And the trial continues!

So Angad and Aarohi arrived in style on February 19th at 8:33 and 8:31 am respectively. Aarohi came out in a flash crying her way into the world. She was so tiny with pink flushed cheeks. I had imagined all gross images but she was a very pretty baby. The doctors took her away but did not show Angad to me. I was dizzy with the amount of blood loss which had covered the entire OT and was wheeled into the ward. It was exhilarating, tiring process and I was still in shock trying to grapple with the new status - Mum of two ! Everyone around me were jubilated and were congratulating me. I was waiting to see my precious angels but no one told me that Angad had the umbilical cord around his neck. Hence he had to ventilated with oxygen. Only after 24hrs inspite of the pain of stiches, I pulled myself to see my babies. They were all bare wearing just a diaper inside an incubator. Both of them hardly opened their eyes. I could not touch them but could sit beside them and talk. Post discharge after 3 days, I would run down to the NICU daily to feed both of them and spend some time. After a week, Aarohi was given to me only to do KMC- a process where the baby is put on the mother for skin to skin contact and we could sit as long as we want. The nurses kept telling to go and rest and recover faster but how could I? I couldn't tear myself from them and be at ease. Angad was still offlimits since he had to be under more ventilation. There were days when I would run and come to feed only to find out that they already were fed or being fed or were under phototherapy and I couldn't touch them. Those days broke my heart and I would cry silently.

While the world celebrates their kids arrival, I was running daily back and forth from hospital and home. I hardly had the time to rest and recuperate. This probably had an effect on my lactation. Slowly Angad was given to me for KMC and I would shift my time between two. But he immediately latched on me. It was so gratifying feeling but Aarohi still could not latch on. I just wish I could lactate for both so that they did not have to depend on supplement milk. I would go to the hospital night and day and days would just pass.

Finally on March 20th, we got to know that the babies will be discharged and our excitement knew no bounds !